PHILOSOPHY OF HAPPINESS

 

 A THEORETICAL AND PRACTICAL EXAMINATION BY MARTIN JANELLO

she's taken over

my head heart and nerves

no part of me left that isn't hers

and still she begs me to take her

 

 

 

sensitive words

and the way you say them

bring to light

the core of my being

 

 

 

dancing with her

was already bliss

when she sighed

hold me closer than this

 

 

 

she is not easily impressed

the least by people who try

 

 

 

don't slouch

said her mother

if you want a man

child lessons

she aims to unlearn

if she can

 

 

 

i could not stand how much

you made me need you

till you said you desperately

needed me too

 

 

 

don't fall for me

she warned the stranger

i have no remorse

give no guarantees

i'll take that risk

despite the danger

attraction will force

us both to our knees

 

 

 

upset nobody will listen to her

i do

cries nobody fathoms her pain

i try

resigned nobody loves her

i might

but i am nobody to her

 

 

 

and love snarked at me

i'll be there in time

worry instead

about getting ready

 

 

 

his heart was not cold

just well preserved

for incidents yet to come

 

 

 

what i’ve lost or never had

saved gained or made

wished relished or regretted

you say you want to embrace it all

and that you will never leave

 

 

 

tired but too wound

for sleep to set in

thoughts of you racing

through my veins

 

 

 

he recalled her

smelling like a puppy

her scent had changed

being all grown up

 

 

 

i'd like to make up for the years

someone else left you in tears

by lifting you up so high

you will miss to cry

 

 

 

however you use your charm and wit

she will not commit

until there's enough

of you to hold on to

 

 

 

had you in mind

since before i met you

still you remain undefined

 

 

 

waiting for you

to come around

it suddenly hit me

we're going in circles

missing the point of love

 

 

 

the girl who would not talk to me

thought i would not talk to her

 

 

 

how to begin to speak to someone

with whom you imagine

the rest of your life

 

 

 

i need you to make peace in me

but first tease me out of my mind

 

 

 

her presence makes me

consciously breathe

 

 

 

is that so she laughed

when i told to her face

i liked other parts of her body too

 

 

 

brushing my arm

with the back of two fingers

she asked are you feeling this

torturing me until i would admit

my nerves were all concurrently lit

 

 

 

dreamed i heard an angel’s wings

batting the air with force

did she come to encourage sins

or fill me with remorse

 

 

 

my speaking to her

seemed like presumption

but she later said

she was hoping for that

 

 

 

i had a dream

long before i met you

that falling in love

i'd remember this dream

 

 

 

how did you know

she keeps on asking

when will she see

i can feel her heart

 

 

 

she says i’ve awakened

deep unknown emotions

protective naked and ferocious

 

 

 

in stirrings of company

lone in my world

i cannot help dreaming of you

 

 

 

some tell him he's naive

to hold on to the belief

that he can find

his counterpart

the kind of person

who knows him by heart

 

 

 

deeming herself too cold for comfort

seeking his warmth at the risk of fire

 

 

 

she prophesies

she’ll change my mind

i’ll hand it over

to rejoin my heart

 

 

 

lone castle

tower watchman

buffeted

by icy storms

holding out

for signs of love

 

 

 

she squinted and smiled

when i played her a lick

fueling my imagination

 

 

 

bolted down

by her divine lightning

while my heart was shouting

run talk to her

 

 

 

locked in dead night

she unearthed me

i fear her love light

will sear and blight

proving me unworthy

 

 

 

she calls me honey

though we’ve just met

i bet she says that

to all guys at the diner

 

 

 

she opens the door

in her underwear

to not keep me waiting

while she’s getting dressed

 

 

 

barely the nerve

to go and ask her

between elation

and total disaster

 

 

 

you admit to be

out of your element

here in the wild

but more than eager

becoming part of mine

 

 

 

each time he whispers

in her ear

that side of her body

gets goosebumps

 

 

 

she would be perpetually haunted

with finding a man

who would know what she wanted

 

 

 

she whispered in french

before she kissed me

i wish i had paid more

attention in school

 

 

 

the most magical love

has not yet taken aim

 

 

 

she momentarily forgot

the purpose of her search

oh yes her heart

it must be here somewhere

in a lock box

safe from being crushed

 

 

 

she never wants to stay

past midnight

that's why i call her

my little pumpkin

 

 

 

the way she focused

on her meals

made him suspect

her a capable lover

 

 

 

he only hints

at his dreams of the one

so he’ll recognize

a true soul's kinship

 

 

 

she wasn't ready for love

first wanted to

lose weight

clean up

tan

do hair

makeup

buy that dress

but boy was she ready for him

 

 

 

she stayed helping me clear the table

after a party at the stable

first thought she

wanted lessons riding horses

yet it was me

who wound up taking courses

 

 

 

the way you caressed

the flower i found

fills me with hope

our love will abound

 

 

 

his staunch resistance

was reason enough

for her to drop shame

and sunbathe buff

 

 

 

what would he not do

to be with her

the list of such actions

kept shortening

 

 

 

why is she crying

when i love her

she tells me

she is not used to this

 

 

 

no my love

that will not work

is this an omen

assembling their bed

 

 

 

he could love you

for you are lovely

but wonders

what it would do to you

 

 

 

reading my half-finished script

she got caught up in my story

 

 

 

can't stay or go

till i know your heart

 

 

 

she asked to leave it all to her

if she was to give herself to him

 

 

 

she wore a double breasted suit

on which the top buttons

looked awfully cute

 

 

 

finding the word horsepower racy

she dresses for our test drives lacy

 

 

 

molten fabric contouring her shapes

she protests it's freezing in here

 

 

 

why does she whisper in my ear

even when we are alone

 

 

 

thinking of you

though you said i shouldn't

my heart's not taking orders well

 

 

 

i steal your glances

not giving them back

until you ask me why

 

 

 

she secretly wished

he'd touch more of her skin

the windstorm obliged like a lover

 

 

 

her presence

makes my blood race

and she's the only cure

her absence

makes my heart ache

and she's the only cure

 

 

 

having made love to you all day

it struck me not having put away

the milk i bought this morning

lots of spoiled dairy is dawning

 

 

 

there she’s again

in this crazy dream

he cannot shake

sleeping or waking

 

 

 

she dropped by for apologizing

but did not find the conditions right

he's smart enough for recognizing

the entire matter’s not worth a fight

 

 

 

she said i feel cold

he took off his jacket

and threw it away

to feel closer to her

 

 

 

i'm leaving she said

it all up to you

how much you want me

in your life

 

 

 

she kept her girlfriends

separate from me

concerned they would enter

in competition

 

PINE KNOWING PAIN

PHILOSOPHICAL QUOTES & POEMS

 

III. LOVE ANTICIPATED

 

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